Well, I’m back in Missoula for a few weeks. All the physical things have worked out pretty well, as far as monetary needs go, and places to stay and such. It’s a bit strange that my trip this winter has consisted of re-visiting old things. Not so much the people, but certainly they are part of the experience. Visiting Mom, then Jen and now Cheree is really like travel through a shadow of past experiences, almost like wandering through a museum filled with old paintings.
I keep attempting to try new things, so I went to Bryce Canyon National Park and did some photography, but other than that what I’m noticing is that nothing really seems to want anything from me but to repeat the past. I felt pretty strongly about not wanting to repeat the cycles that I had been through for the last few years, but I’m not really sure how to do it when I feel like everything new I try isn’t really embracing my presence about it.
I liked being in Quartzsite in January. I always love going to the places that seem to change with you instead of stagnating in their usual dynamic. Every place has its habits, but places like Quartzsite, Hawaii, and Yellowstone are always in flux with new people and changing dynamics. When I’m away from that kind of environment I feel a little bit lonely. I realized this winter that I actually get depressed when I’m too far away from the intense experiences of backpacking in truly beautiful places like the Tetons or Kaua’i’s Napali Coast. It’s like a drug to be carried into such states of euphoria.
Right now I’m about a month away from the Park and I’m really ready to get there and start the conversations that go along with thousands of wanderers from all over the world. This year I am equipped with a sweet pool cue and won’t have to loose the pool tourney because someone decided to let some girl (he might get something from) borrow the cue he promised to me at the last minute.
Today I think I’ll just hang out and watch movies and maybe try to get Guild Wars to play, although the connect here at Lael’s isn’t very fast…
Peace…
